I hung out with you for the first time. I had no idea what to expect. I was excited but at the same time I wanted to puke. I felt like I was betraying the one before. I had no clue what to do, I never thought I should even try to be with anyone else again.  Then you came walking through the park. My first immediate thought was that you were so cute and I was so surprised I even thought that. Then we talked while my sister filled out her stupid job application and decided to go for a walk. We walked around the whole park and talked the whole time; about pretty much anything and everything. Then you took off for the swings, which I told you were my favorite. (: That is when everything went wrong.  

My friend was jealous of us hanging out and said some really hurtful things. If our relationship is going to make it, we’re going to have to take some crap, and it’s not gonna be easy. We’re not even together yet and we’re already taking it and I don’t know what to do. It wasn’t this hard with the one before. We kept it hidden and had a beautiful, but secret, love. 

Today, me and you held hands in the grocery store and I didn’t want to let go. I hope I can do this. I want to be happy.